“You are called to represent Jesus Christ in helping people become clean from their sins.“
~Preach My Gospel, A Guide to Missionary Service
Okay, does anyone feel like that’s a pretty big deal? Because I feel like that’s a pretty big deal! To be honest, I often feel a constant sense of anxiety as a missionary because there is so much on our heads and so much we need to be doing for the people we are called to serve. It can be hard to deal with, and when it gets too overwhelming I pray that the Lord will take those feelings of anxiety and replace them with calm and confidence in Him. I have indeed felt His help as I live each day; but so far those feelings have not been taken away!
So, I started looking at anxiety from a different angle.
As I’ve read through the Book of Mormon, I noticed many of the prophets speaking of the anxiety that they feel for their people:
…mine anxiety is great for you… (2 Nephi 6:3)
…am weighed down with much more desire and anxiety for the welfare of your souls… (Jacob 2:3)
…this he did because of the great anxiety of his people… (Mosiah 28:12)
…I wish from the inmost part of my heart, yea, with great anxiety even unto pain, that ye would hearken unto my words… (Alma 13:27)
And I started noticing a theme. Anxiety is not always a bad thing! It actually seems to be something that naturally follows a true disciple of Jesus Christ. However. The key is that this anxiety doesn’t lead to a sense of hopelessness or depression but instead to humility and trust. As followers of the Savior, we have a love for all those around us and we are concerned for their welfare. We worry about how to help them. We want them to feel happiness. In my case as a missionary especially, I want them to have the restored gospel and have their eyes and hearts opened to its truthfulness. Those are all things that can cause a sense of “anxiety” in us, especially because we can’t control others’ actions. Even if what we are feeling anxious about isn’t necessarily other people but about future events, careers, finances, etc… there is a lot out there that might contribute to our worried feelings! But, instead of getting overwhelmed with these concerns, if we turn them over to the Lord and trust Him, He will speak peace to us. If we let “righteous anxiety” lead us to humble ourselves before God, realizing we can’t do it on our own, and then ask Him for His help, I know that He will ease our minds and lead us to what we can do to best help His children or succeed in our own lives.
So even though missionary life (and life in general) can be stressful and overwhelming, take heart in that there will always be peace. Because no matter what, in the Gospel of Jesus Christ, there is peace.
Turn to Him, and He will give you relief <3
And have a beautiful day!